Descend to Acend

It’s a little disconcerting to know that so many of my friends have a general idea what they want to get their degree in or do as a job and I have absolutely no idea on what I am going to do.  I have a couple of general ideas, but I don’t know what is realistic and what I should do.  Or if I should go to college or join the military or both.

I’ve really started considering the Navy.

Maybe I’ll get some answers this summer.

I’m thinking about doing some mashups.  What do you guys think?

I don’t really know if I am going to have an emotionally stressful time this summer.  I decided I am going to go on a date this summer.  Or multiple.  I’m not sure.  It’s been two years and I feel like I should be more social.

I’ve been practicing my bedroom dj stuff.  I am working on my beat matching and I am getting there.  I’m still audibly off beat, but I am getting better.  Did I mention that I’m not using the sync button and that I am doing it with my eyes closed?  I can’t wait until I nail it a majority of the time.

I discovered I am in pretty good physical condition.

I covered 22 miles of rough terrain in 2 days while carrying a pack that weighed somewhere between 20 and 35 pounds.  I survived and finished it.

In the end it was all a mind game, a game to see if you could keep going.

I’m camping and several of my friend and I are both in a cabin.  One friend asked for neosporin or baby powder or something of the sort, because he is chaffing on his genital area after an 11 mile hike.  So he sticks his hand in his shorts to apply the medicine and I am in the same cabin while I took off my pants to apply Aloe Vera to my sunburn.  Mind you there are several other people in the cabin (no adults) and we are all having a conversation.  A much younger individual walked in not expecting one guy with his hand deep in his shorts and another one with his pants off.  He walked right out.  It was pretty funny.  

I had a nightmare….I remember being part of a survival group, one that eventually got rid of it’s members (not a tv show, mind you).  I remember I was sent to this one place, and I climbed a wall to get into this large indented room in the wall.  To the right of me when I was climbing up, there was a tv playing.  Once I finally climbed up there, I noticed the tv show/movie changed to the Star Belly Sneeches.  Then I was pulled from behind and I started falling…but I didn’t hit the ground.  I felt like I was being pulled to someplace…someplace bad.  It was a very prominent feeling…very remember-able.

My nightmares are so weird…and this one is one of the less scary ones.

Tantalize:

transitive verb

: to tease or torment by or as if by presenting something desirable to the view but continually keeping it out of reach

I’m surprised I don’t use this word more.