I have a friend that I miss a lot. And I feel bad that she’s suffering and there is nothing I can do about it. No way I can help. That I’ve caused it, but I haven’t done anything wrong at the same time.
I hate that I have this great defense in Brazilian Jujitsu, but I can’t get a good offense and that’s what is keeping me from being good and I hate it because I try hard and I feel like I’m never good enough.
Being a white belt and going against blue and purple belts suck.
It really freaks me out too because if I were to use it in a really life situation, I worry I won’t be able to adequately defend myself, and that scares me. A lot.